I don’t Believe in Myself
When People have to decide something, they want to be sure about their secision. In this reason, people get some advice from other whom they know well. They want to prove that they are right. Ordinary people tend to seek theit answers by asking, or comfirming to other people. However, when they do so, in the bottom of their minds, there is something secure about themselves. They believe in themselves. Even though whatever thing is turned out to be wrong, they hypnotise themselves that there is anyrhing wrong, but they are just in bad place, and bad time.
However, I am not like the people. I don’t believe in myself. I become almost always insecure when it comes to a decision time. Because I have the problem with this, I always have to face that how stupid ,and vulnerable I am. For instance, recently I have made a big desicion aboout my future. I was so bewildered what to do, and what is the best way to manage that well. At the time around. I can’t help. I was helpless myself, so I recall my all freinds to talk to. I hope that my friends can decide what to do. I wished that they lived my life instead.
Why I don’t trust and believe in myself? Because the fact that, I am afraid to be a decision maker. I just don’t want to take any pressure, or responsibility out of when the decision goes to fail. Since I entered a kindergarten, I have had to decide what to do in order to get along with others. At those time period, I became learning others besides family members.
It is hard to live with distrusting myself. This worlds have full of freud, lie, misbehavior, anger which generated by not to believe. I certainly don’t want to contribute to make this competive and dishonest world worse. It is time I have to believe myself.