I am a Hypocrisy.
I thought about my teacher “Jae min”. When I was a high school student, she was my academy teacher. Now she is my boss. I think she always gets love from many people like students, neighborhood, and me. What is the reason? I really want to be like that. I haven’t been pay attention, because I am too common. I thought about her. Even though her impression is not good, if she is not smile, and she hit very hard using her strong power, she gave many love. I often joke she looks like a boy. But the real person who have heartlessness is me.
One day, I hit a student with a ruler. I didn’t know it is really powerful, before the student expressed the pain with a red face. I have thought I was pretty pure and kind, but it was not true. I was like a hypocrisy. Am I hypocrisy? I read a book named Our happy time. In the book, very kind person Monica nun said “I am a hypocrisy.” She is very kind, but she said like that. Because of this word, I got a little peace.
Sometimes I think if I become a good teacher? Can I take care of my children sincerely? But I am not a Jesus christ, and I can’t become a saint. Even I don’t like harm. So I can’t sure I become a good leader. However, when I face my children, I want to feel my heart, not my head. I become such a teacher at least.