I read “marshmallow story”  The story of book unfold between Jonadan and Charlie conversation. Jonadan is boss and success. He has warm mind and cool head. He also likes conversation and advice to others. Charlie is Jonadan’s driver, poor man , and he respects his boss. Jonadan advises Charlie to have patience. That is, Don’t eat the marshmallow until accomplish one’s goal.

  People always face the moment of choice. At this time, we often shake determination because of marshmallow. So some people eat marshmallow, but the other people don’t eat it. It is difference between success and failure. I can feel through this book that everyone can do hard in short time, but steady effort is very difficult.  

I take a clss about play coaching for children, because my second major is Children Study. I saw a motion picture about educational method using children’s books like Hansel and Gretel of Waldorf preschool in German. The teacher in there read aloud same story for 4 weeks to children, and children just listened and imagined without book during that time. After 4 weeks, children played the story with friends. The teacher said, “this unusual reading education method was for spiritual deverlopment, not only brain and physical. I thought that Germany education philosophy poited at CHILDREN!, not for satisfaction of parent’s greedy or view. For this reason, I want to know more ‘Waldorf’, and decide to learn their thoutful attitude for children. 

Usually I think oversea because my major is English and most people do well English than I. It makes me blush with shame. In addition I’m third years. It makes me hasty. Frankly, I have found many other methods because of very expensive however, I don’t find other methods. In addition, my parents don’t permit alone oversea unqualifiedly. They said when I must get married, I go oversea with husband. Oh~ my god! It’s struck dumb. But they very maintain strong. So I have no word again.  

We greet the may. May is family month in Korea. So, clergyman talked about parent’s role. Parents’ role is very impotent than I think. Most people effect parents a large part. For example, if dad is being radical, his children also extreme. Cases which parents abuse their children, when their children grow up they continually hate parents. In addition they fear that they become parents. I felt sad and I prayed for bad parents.

Now, fourth-year students take a photograph because of graduation. I envy them because they have finished school, they don’t take exam the more and they can learn money. Soon, I afraid my course. I don’t decide my course yet. So, I felt I’m very shy beacuse I’m third-year. Though I’m majoring English, I don’t speak English well. In addition, I have not what I can special. Suddenly, I felt uneasy about my course. But, I hate apprehension. Just, I would experience everyting. I decided I’m confident of myself. And, I’m hard worker and active person. So, Having I not confidence doesn’t seem right to me somehow. Soon, I got confidence in my own ability.

I often used my father cellphone secretly. What is more my mother used. So cellphone fee was very high. He was very surprised. So, my mother and me were startled and we turned away him. He called me and ask me “Do you know the reason why why cellphone fee is high?” I shaked my head and I called my mom. She said” You must close other service. For example, color ring and bell sound etc. and you must not link internet on cellphone.” The moment, I was laughing in my sleeve. Other side I felt he was very pitiful.

Beacause I changed my computer, I forgot this blog for one month.ㅠㅠ  And also there were too many assignments. oh…I have no excuse. From now on I have to log in everyday.

( I’m in multimedia room, but it is too cold.;; The air-conditioner works very well.;;)   

Last Saturday, I went to music concert. The music concert opened my church for engage in Christians mission work. The day many musicians came in there. �?�루마, 대니 정 etc. �?�루마 said “I’m not new age musician. I’m only Christian. Please, every clear misunderstanding. Anyway, I’m 대니 정 fan. The day, I saw him firstly. I forgot my spirit. I continually yell out and clap my hands. But most people were shaming more and more. 대니 정 was dripping with sweat. The shape cut a figure in the players. Really it’s very full of bounty that whoever is concerning something jobs. I want to it.

Recently in America, Iegalization of immigration became issue. America Senate permit illegal immigrats, but people agaist Bush opposed that. Actually almost  people of America are immigrants except Indians. But sometimes, They seem to look as if original owner of America especially White people, so they have racial discrimination. Of course, I learned and I know that all of the White people don’t do that. When I see our foreigner professor, I can realize they are good people. Somtimes, they are better than Korea professor. Anyway, I hope decide it well because you know there are many Korea people of illegal immigrants.

I saw my father taked medicine, I felt unsual depressed. Actually, I didn’t give present for father on parent’s day because I’m poor. But, today I felt I made a grave blunder. I’m bad a child to my parents because I always ask my parents to buy something and don’t housework. Really, I’m a unwitting child. Even so, my family is’t well off. So, I work part-time job at university however, may be, parents like I study hard. I decided if I’m successful man, I’m dutiful to my parents. Someone said me “When one would be filial, one´s parents are gone.” I realized something. I cannot postpone filial piety.

Wow!! Finally I took pictures for gradutaion~! It was very hot and sunny, so it hardly took photos outside. However overall, it was really fun. In the early morning I was extremely busy because of a make-up and doing hair. I was in a hurry as I had to arrived in campus by 1 o’clock. On my way photo place I met many friends but they looked really different. Everyone looked great and nice. We took a lots of shots sometimes in a group and sometimes by ourselves. Among those many pictures I liked one wearing a graduation gawn and hat because I felt like in real graduation ceremony. After the photograghing I got exhausted. I had to smile for about 3hours so my mouth were almost shivering. I really need to take a rest and I skipped classes. Fortunately prof.KIM’s class was cancled, but prof.Gord’s wasn’t. Although it was tiring day but I had great time and memory. I really look forward to seeing a graduation albume .

Now, it’s very fine. isn’t it? May be, many peopel get spring fever about the this time. They make needless haste for hang around with the other sex and feel lonely a lot. Sometimes, they enjoy sitting bench and thinking something.

Spring make women gain weight. Other side, most women start diet for summer. May be, most women same dream summner to wear bikini. Also, most man start exercise for muscle. Of course, it’s for summer.

I’m in fear because everybody becomes slim and muscle-man.

Most young man must go to the army in Korea. It’s compulsory. And  most seniors say ” When man must be dicsharged from military service, man will be true man.” But, most young man say ” 2 years is a long time. I’d better somthing certificate or something like.” I think now, it’s true our army-culture is problem. Actually, young man lead a meaningless life during 2 years. Because anyone doesn’t know when does a war begins. And the man have nothing to learn in army. And they want to learn anyting. Of course, there are people who lean in army but case to the contrary is the more many. Expecailly, people who is majoring artistic is more hate army. In my view, our army should chang culture. Army must be studied their major during 2 years so, they don’t think 2 years is a long time. Army must make mood that they volunteer for military service. Anyway, I hope to change army good course.

What’s Toeic for you?  Everybody in Korea must have tried Toeic, surely our classmates.  I also have tried two times. During preparing Toeic, I found some moral deliquencies from YBM Sisa which hold Toeic Test in Korea in replace of ETS. Now, I’m going to indicate two bad conducts of it. 

Apparently, I can’t understand why I can get my score almost over 20 days late, even if fanstastic technology takes charge in calculating. Do you know why? Until that day, we should register the next month’s toeic until that day. Actually, we could have just 3 hours between the time of checking scores and of registering. Do you know if we pass the day, we have to pay 10% more during the special registration period.

The other reason is about refund policy. There is no commision just when we cancel it the day we registered. But, from one day late, it charges a commision. Of course, we check our scores before registering for next month. But the evil YBM doesn’t give any time to do that. We are designed to register almost 1 month before with a normal price. I’m insisting on having normal procedure, ain’t I? If we want to cancel it  around the day we checked our scores, we only got back 40% from what we paid. Oh, my god! Non-sense!

For these reasons, I accuse YBM of unvirtuous company. 

These days, I’ve been gloomy, so I wanted to change my feeling, and I decied to plant some flowers because some plants in my house wilted last winter. Frome when I was young, raising flowers is my hobby because I and my parents didn’t like to keep dogs or cats in my house. Therefore, flowers was my younger sister to me as other children felt animals in house like friends or sisters. I bought some wild flowers, and I planted each of them on colorful flower pot. After that, I watered the yellow, white, and purple flowers. Eventually, I felt fresh and happy. I would feel this feeling again everymorning from now on, and I belived that I can dust off my gloomy feelings soon.

Tiger JK is a member of rap group Drunken Tiger, and Drunken Tiger is the Majesty of Korean rap music. Originally, it consisted of two members, but one member left the group for his business, and after that Tiger JK made music, and rap alone. Few days ago, Korean rappers perforemed together, and of course Tiger JK came up, but his appearance was very different before. He said, “I got a terribel illness on my back, and It was hard disease to recovery according my doctors opinion, BUT I wanted  to rap forever with you.” His face swelled up because of side effect of medicine. He ran the stage fulling of passion. His passion and positive thinking for terrible disease were very impressive to me. I hope that he will get up soon, and then walk for wonderful future with power like his song.

My hobby is nothing special, so sometimes whenever anybody ask me “what is your hobby ?” I am embarrassed. Actually I don’t any hobby except breathing and sleeping. Yes, right. I am very lazy, so my health is  terrible. I have a stomachache and backache. One day, I couldnot disgest any food. I had a really bad pain. I thought I had a cancer. At that time I really belived that. But when I went to see a doctor, He said ” You need to walk. Your stomach is longer because you did not exercize”  When I heard it, I was very embrrassed. These days, I try to walk, but It is not easy because I am lazy. Take care your body. You know health is the most important in our life.  

My hobby is nothing special, so sometimes whenever anybody ask me “what is your hobby ?” I am embarrassed. Actually I don’t any hobby except breathing and sleeping. Yes, right. I am very lazy, so my health is  terrible. I have a stomachache and backache. One day, I couldnot disgest any food. I had a really bad pain. I thought I had a cancer. At that time I really belived that. But when I went to see a doctor, He said ” You need to walk. Your stomach is longer because you did not exercize”  When I heard it, I was very embrrassed. These days, I try to walk, but It is not easy because I am lazy. Take care your body. You know health is the most important in our life.  

My hobby is nothing special, so sometimes whenever anybody ask me “what is your hobby ?” I am embarrassed. Actually I don’t any hobby except breathing and sleeping. Yes, right. I am very lazy, so my health is  terrible. I have a stomachache and backache. One day, I couldnot disgest any food. I had a really bad pain. I thought I had a cancer. At that time I really belived that. But when I went to see a doctor, He said ” You need to walk. Your stomach is longer because you did not exercize”  When I heard it, I was very embrrassed. These days, I try to walk, but It is not easy because I am lazy. Take care your body. You know health is the most important in our life.  

Suddenly, I want to go to Jejudo. I long for the good old days. I took a very pleasure trip to Jejudo with my family when I was 15 years old. There is a reason why the trip was special to me : We went there by flight first time. The island was a beautiful place and the pace of life was still relatively slow. Also, the vast expenses of open, rolling land, and the clusters of traditional houses which still characterized many of the island’s towns and villages. Although, Jejudo is our country’s island, the culture of region was a stranger. All my family enjoyed every bit of the trip.   

After I read bout Saddom Hussein’ article on the yahoo,  I tought he is very pitiful. He always read Quran. What is he fight for? and Who is he fight for?, or Is he a  America’  secrifice? I am confused now. In fact, America have many effect on whole world including politics and  Military alliance. America  raised war of Iracq, and they catched a president of Iracq, Saddom Hussein. That was very strange. He is not Ameriaca’s president even if he made a mistake. I don’t understand about that. America has very big power. I am afraid of Amreica. They go through fire and water for their benefit of nation. We have to be  aweaken always for our country.

Really Really I’m bad. Because I well make other person do anyting becaouse I hate troublesome work.

Do you know Korea soccer team was fixed? And do you like soccer? I love soccer.

Really, I didn’t like soccer 4 years ago. I have like soccer for 4 years. Do you remember the world cup 2002. Then, Korea team advanced 8강. May be Koreans are infatuated with soccer. When Korea palyed game with other country, Most Koreans came together in front of the city hall and Everybody cheered soccer. After finished game, Most people got together because of alcohol. And another people  march on the street. Koreans were very happy. I wish once more come again at that time.

Today, Happy teacher’s day!!

I prepared one rose for Jim. Because he help me to prepare my graduation-presentation. He almost checked my English grammer and my subject body. So I counld finish it without accidents.

And he know I’m short English so, he pay careful attention me. He said ” Don’t mind your English grammer. Only Speak!! You important speaking and listening English. So, You must raise your English skill.” I was moved by him words. Because anyone don’t say me the words. Just, they afraided or ignore. So, I decided I study hard English.

Last thursday, I expressed my graduation presentation. I expressed sex and Americans. May be everybody gets nervous when they are in front of an examiner. I was very tension but, my subject may be a matter of common interest. So, monotonous mood changed about mood enjoy. So I was lacking seriousneses when many people started laughing. So, I expressed a half without tension. But if I again exprees presentation, I cannot it. May be I have a heart attack.

Have you talked with disable? At first, I talked disabled last saturday.

Last saturday, I went to a camp of theme with disabled because of a point. Vlounteer have charge of  each of disaled for safety of disabled. I met Park, Woo-Hyun. He is very bad looking and like to a horse. He talked to me many words without reserve while I think about him. Soon I asked another teacher about him. She said “ He hasn’t IQ 80 so, he is disabled. He do well everything. Just he is lack unterdstanding than other nomal students.” And  I grew more and more in love with him. He is kind-hearted and interest foreign language. So, He talked to every foreign in there. And he taught me foreign.

But, He showed signs sometimes because of me. One said “ Disabled take seriously either object of themselves love or not. So, Please honor them with your freindship.”

Really, Disabled is very poor. How long they live that way?

Anyway, This experieunce is specially to me.

I’ve spent gloomy and sad days since last week. Nothing happened to me, so I needn’t to be sad or spent tearful days, but I couldn’t calm myself. Eventually, I put off several things what I had to, and I was just sleeping. I tried to change my gloomy feelings, so I ran or listened music or went to watch movie with my friends, but my feeing wasn’t changed. It was terrible, and I wanted to hide somewhere. I started to think about problems. What’s wrong with me? Finally, I found a problem. Actually, I got stress because of my sister’s wedding. When my first sister got married two years ago, I was sad inside for few days. At that time, I wasn’t used to parting, and I realized that I am not still used to parting with my sister. I’m youngest chid in my family, so I depended on my sisters. My sisters’ wedding is good event for my home, and I’m praying for her beautiful life, but in deep mind, I’ve been afraid of being alone. It’s so stupid thought, isn’t it?

I take a class about ‘Human and Family Life’ in this semester. Last week, I studied about German Family. Geman have really different family realtionship and idea with ours, and it was so impressive to me. German parents don’t think their children as possession, and they teach their children support themselves become eighteen or nineteen.  However, Korean parents are still commanding their children telling ‘it’s for you.’ Not only parents and children relationship but also funeral rites is different. German think death in house is not good because they have to prove it wasn’t murder.  Therefore, old people go to hospital for peaceful death without family. In German, nurses care the old instead of their offsprings. I saw an article about this funeral rites in German wrote by Korean journalist. He criticized that culture, but I think that attitude is not appropriate on this situation because it is handed down culture, and even I envy the resolution of German. Compassion of Korean is good, but why don’y we set folks free from durable restrain?

 I  saw  a  movie  that  is  named  The  Chronicles  of  Narnia.   In  England,  under  World  War  Ⅱ,  a  brother  and  sister  foursome  go  to  avoid  an  air  raid  to  Degori’s  country  house.  Boring  life  continue  and  one  day  they  find  a  magic  closet.  Through  the  magic  closet,  they  enter  the  wonderful  world,  Narnia.  The  Narnia  was  made  by  Aslan  who  is  a  great  lion,  and  there  were  animals  that  can  speak  and  being  in  a  myth.  But,  Narnia  is  confined  in  constant  winter  by  a  wicked  witch.  They  fight  against  a  witch  to  rescue  the  lost  brother  and  Narnia.  After  win  a  war,  Aslan  perform  a  coronation  by  a  prediction  and   the  brother  and  sister  foursome  become  kings  who  manage  the  four  points  of  the  compass.      This  movie  was  a  childish,  but  it  gave  some  lesson.  Like  most  of  Disney  Film,   The  Chronicles  of  Narnia  made  me  aware  of  promotion  of virtue  and  reproval  of  vice,  and   love  of  family.

Months  ago,  a  tragic  accident  happened  in  Lotte  World.  Ther   is  a  ride  which  is  called  Atlantis,  a  man  fell  down  during take it and lost his life.  He  was  a  worker  who  has  worked  in  there.  That  day,  he  was  enjoying  his  vacation.  After  the  accident,  a  fact  that  is  a  safety  belt  and  bar  got  loose  become  known.  An  interested  person  said  that  he  was  likely  to  lift  the  bar  to   have a thrill  himself.  According  to  an  eyewitness  account,  however,  the  truth  is  different  from  news  and  article.  At  that  time, the  observer  was  waiting  for  his  friend  who  went  to  play  a  ride.  He  listened  a  piercing  shriek  suddenly  and  went  to  the  place.  A  man  was  crying  aloud  with  loose  his  a  safety  bar,  but  the  workers  didn’t  take  any  action.  After  all,  the  man  fell  the  Atlantis  ride  and  was  killed.  Lotte  World  is  hiding  the  truth  to  their  image  from  the  people.  But,  they  must  not  wink  about  one  person  who  worked  with  them,  and  his  life.  The  truth  will  be  out  someday.  I  pray  for  the  repose  of  his  soul.